Hello and good morning my sweet little ones!
We got to have an ultrasound on Wednesday and we saw one little yolk sac and maybe just maybe one more. More blood draws this week showed betas still raising and the levels on Wednesday were 1272 and Friday was 2170. So for sure I know that one of you is in there, but I don't know about the other one. Even with the relief, anxiety is still very high for me. I just keep thinking that every single day I am going to lose you. I really hope this feeling goes away soon, because I just want to have happy and excited and joyful and loving feelings. It is been so long that we have been waiting for you, that it is scary to think you are here. It causes such mixed emotions for me. I am so incredibly happy and overjoyed to know that there is at least one of you in there, but it causes me tremendous heart ache and sadness to know that we May have already lost one of you. You are both so very very very loved and I can't even begin to explain it to anybody else. It is not that I am not grateful to at least have one of you, but I love you both so much. We have another ultrasound coming up this week and we will see what is happening then! Until then, I am holding out hope that you are both still tucked in there and one of you is just hiding.
This weekend was also a giant milestone, we decided to tell your grandparents and aunt and uncles about you! Everyone is so over the moon excited. We gave each set of grandparents a onsie that says "Worth the Wait" and has an elephant on it. There were a lot of tears shed and your family is so excited to know more about you and learn everything about you. Many people may wonder why we told the people so soon, because most wait a while longer. But you are real and you are here and we want people to know. God has given us you and we want to cherish and celebrate every single moment. We are praising God and celebrating his goodness and know he watches over you and protects you both already. Whatever comes in the future, your family knows and loves you now as much as we do!
According to the apps, you are now the size of an sweet pea or a chocolate chip! You have grown tremendously over this last week! From a poppy seed to a Chocolate Chip in 2 weeks is quite huge. Your dad and I have started a little collection of the items they say you are at each stage. We get very excited every Sunday to read the new developments and see what is going on each week!!! Every Sunday morning, we wake up, go to church, and then read all about you. It is exciting to see all of the amazing things you are doing and totally makes us know that God is good and he is great and only God could orchestrate such a fantastic being in such a tiny little place.
2 weeks of Growth-From a Poppy Seed to an Apple Seed to a Chocolate Chip!!!!
This week it says that your nose, mouth, and ears are starting to develop but that they may be an odd places for a bit. It also says that your little heart is going to start beating and we may be able to see and hear that on the ultrasound! You got some big jobs ahead my little ones, time to grow all of those body parts that you will need in just a few months. It says you are somewhere between a fifth to a quarter of an inch big. Still so tiny and small, but forming organs and body parts!
We love you both so much, and are looking forward to our next ultrasound of you and hopefully seeing those beating little hearts!
Love,
mommy
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