Showing posts with label baby. Show all posts
Showing posts with label baby. Show all posts
Saturday, January 21, 2017
Letters to our little ones-Week 5
10/9/2016
Week five-
Hello my sweet little ones! It has been quite a week! On Monday I went in for a blood draw and I got the call that I never thought I would get to hear, the nurse just said "Congratulations, you are pregnant!" She told me that our number is 87, which is a little lower than they would like, but you are definitely there! I went back for a repeat draw on Wednesday, and the number was 160. Not quite doubling, but good enough that the doctor said we didn't need to do another test. The anxiety and worry and fear of that second number is something I can't even describe. I was so afraid to know that you were here and then that we could lose you. But you are still here!
I don't feel like it has really sunk in, and I have said it before and will probably continue to say it, but it all feels like a dream. You have a due date, June 11, 2017! Even the medical community recognizes you as a real something!!!! We have an ultrasound scheduled for this coming week and I cannot wait for it. We are just so excited for you little ones to be part of our life, and to know if there is one or two of you!
According to the app you have done some great growing this week! You are now the size of an apple seed and not even an ounce yet. It says that your cells are splitting and dividing and have already started forming different parts of your body like your brain and spine and also separating into what will become the placenta! It is all totally amazing to me that so much is happening and something the size of an apple seed!!! I hope that you continue to grow and get comfy and that God's plan is for you to stay in it for the long run, because that is definitely our plan!
Your size compared to a quarter!!!! So much happening in that little Apple seed body!
Your dad and I have started trying to figure out how we are going to tell the world, but we won't be doing that for a while. We love just knowing that it's our little secret and nobody else knows! But soon we will start to share with family and friends, because we want everybody to have the joy of loving you. We also want everybody to know that God is good, he is to be trusted and depended on and will never forsake.
So keep growing my little ones, and know that you are loved beyond life itself.
Love,
Mommy
Saturday, July 25, 2015
Another Twist in the Plot
Well this was a fun and exciting month. I went in for my typical baseline ultrasound at the beginning of the month and was told that I have a gigantic cyst! LOL at the fact that the doctor said it so casually. Apparently it is "only the size of a golf ball"- so no big deal!?!?!?!? While he's over there saying no big deal I'm over here going holy crap I have something the size of a golf ball me and I had no idea! This is why I preach about having monitored cycles. 6 cycles with no cysts and nothing different about this one and BOOM, cyst. Want to see what it looks like? Here you go-
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I've heard many people talk about how their doctor just prescribed Clomid or other medications and never get monitored. What's the big deal you ask? Well being on those medications can cause a cyst to grow and potentially rupture and then not only will you be in tremendous pain and in the emergency room, you could end up losing your entire Fallopian tube. No big deal right… Just kidding! So anybody out there thinking about just getting an unmonitored cycle to see how it works, to save money, or because your doc said it is ok-caution caution caution. Not only caution but running the other direction, because you really want to risk your fertility completely?
So since I decided that I would like to keep my tube in the semi OK condition that it is, I'm on the bench for the month. No treatments, no chance at getting pregnant, nothing. Just sitting here keeping the bench warm. I feel like the little kid who just kicks the dirt while the other kids go play. One would think that this is no big deal, what is another month when you have already been doing this for 20 months, except one doesn't understand infertility. There are many things that I had planned to do this month and canceled due to when treatments would've been. These included going to an amazing conference for my coaching business, going home to visit family and friends, and going out with Jeff for a weekend away. We cancelled all of these events due to how the treatment cycle should have progressed. And welcome to infertility, you cancel your life and then you end up with the cycle cancelled. Sometimes it's just so frustrating.
This is just one really good example about how ladies who suffer from infertility live their lives. It's always month-to-month, cycle to cycle, treatment to treatment. You try and plan your entire life around cycles and monitoring days. And at the end of the day you are reminded that you have very little control over the situation and life isn't fair. It is at times like this where I start to think that infertility is synonymous with life isn't fair.I have to remind myself:
I will admit, I am starting to lose some faith that this will ever happen. Anyone who knows me knows that I am an upbeat person who usually sees the glass as half full. But it gets harder and harder to trust and have faith. Some days are dark and dreary. Some days just suck. I have a very strong faith and trust in God's plan, but sometimes that faith is hard to maintain. So for today, I am going to put this here, so that even though I am feeling shaky-I can be reminded of his promises until they come true. If any one can spare some extra prayers, I would be very happy to accept them.



So that's the update, nothing. But I promise you I will try to update more often so I'm trying to fulfill my end of the deal. Check back in a week or two and I'll let you know where we sit on the situation.
Monday, January 19, 2015
Infertility (IF) diagnoses
So many people have been asking what is happening now, when am I going to update the blog, what is going on. Welcome to IF. It is a whole bunch of planning, planning, planning and then waiting. Waiting for the next cycle, waiting for test results, waiting for meeting with the doctors, waiting. So while we are in this waiting process, I thought I would write a blog about how IF is determined and what testing goes into it.
If you saw the video I made, you know that it can take a perfectly healthy couple up to a year of well timed intercourse to get pregnant. Some people get pregnant right away, others it takes almost a whole year. You have a 20% chance each month. Some people may think that there is a problem or it's infertility after a couple of months, but it's really just them being impatient. After that year, or six months if the woman is over 35, a couple can make an appointment with the reproductive endocrinologist (RE), or a fertility specialist. I always advocate for using an RE over your OB/GYN because REs specialize in getting people pregnant and spend years training in this field. OBs, even ones who "specialize in fertility" only received about a month of training in fertility. Usually the first meeting is just a history gathering, a planning session, and question answering.
The RE will usually ask about family history, if a woman has regular cycles, if she is been tracking her temps each morning or using ovulation predictor kits to check her ovulation, and about a million other questions. If that woman has short cycles or long long cycles, doesn't know if she's ovulating, or has other symptoms (painful periods, short luteral phases, etc), it will play into what testing is done. I am no expert at all tests out there so I can only tell you my experience, others have different ones.
The first step is for the man to have a semen analysis. So Jeff gave a sample (guys have the easy part ;) ). When looking at a sample, they are looking for a few things including count, motility, morphology, and defective sperm. Count is the overall number of sperm, motility is how well they swim (both speed and direction, no swimming in circles!), morphology is their size and shape (helps determine if they can get into the egg), and defects could range from having two heads to no tail and more. Jeff's test came back great, with the exception of morphology. He saw urologist who was not worried at all and neither was our RE. The RE basically said morphology is like soldiers who didn't bring all their gear, they may still get in and win, but it will be much harder and more may die in the process. Yep, I can never get away from military comparisons. They said that this was most likely not our problem. So Jeff gets a pass and just has to take vitamins to maintain his health.
My testing was not quite so easy. The first thing I did was went in on day three of my cycle and had around six or seven tubes of blood drawn. The testing included looking at levels of testosterone, FSH, LH, thyroid hormones, estradiol, and a genetic panel done. Most of my levels came back within a fairly normal range, except my thyroid. That was high and so I was started on a medication called levothyroxin to hopefully bring it back down to normal levels. I am not a genetic carrier for anything so that is pretty awesome to know too. At that same visit an ultrasound done to look at my ovaries and uterus. My uterus was perfect but my ovaries (along with some other symptoms) showed that I have a condition called polycystic ovarian syndrome (PCOS). I'll write about that another time, because that is a whole post by itself. About a week later I went and had an HSG done. This is a test where they essentially check to see if your Fallopian tubes are open and functioning. If you want to read more about it, click HERE. This site include descriptions, tube pictures, and some facts. My left tube has no problems but my right one is inconclusive. As of right now it's considered blocked but the doctor said that he didn't feel comfortable stating whether it was open or blocked because the test was somewhat inconclusive. So we are treating it as blocked. There's nothing that can be done for this except surgery and even surgery has no guarantees. They could perform the surgery, we would be benched for a few months, and within a few months the tube could be blocked again and so it is really not beneficial.
Since many times PCOS can be caused by insulin resistance, my doctor also had me do a two hour glucose test. This consisted of drinking a bottle of highly concentrated sugar water, tasting very similar to the orange drink at McDonald's, and then waiting two hours. They drew my blood both before and after and tested the levels to see if I was at risk for diabetes or potentially had diabetes. That test came back that I was fine and not insulin resistant. Thank goodness for small victories! I have now started referring to the lab people as vampires though, because I see them so often and they take bunches of blood! They laugh when I do. :)
After getting all the results we had another meeting with our RE. It was determined that the cause of our infertility was most likely the PCOS causing weak and sometimes no ovulation, high thyroid, and the morphology didn't exactly help. So our plan is to take a medication called Femera (Letrozole) on days three through seven of my next cycle, and hope that that brings on a stronger ovulation than I've been experiencing. Hopefully this will be enough to help us meet cutie pie Humphrey. Time will tell!
If you saw the video I made, you know that it can take a perfectly healthy couple up to a year of well timed intercourse to get pregnant. Some people get pregnant right away, others it takes almost a whole year. You have a 20% chance each month. Some people may think that there is a problem or it's infertility after a couple of months, but it's really just them being impatient. After that year, or six months if the woman is over 35, a couple can make an appointment with the reproductive endocrinologist (RE), or a fertility specialist. I always advocate for using an RE over your OB/GYN because REs specialize in getting people pregnant and spend years training in this field. OBs, even ones who "specialize in fertility" only received about a month of training in fertility. Usually the first meeting is just a history gathering, a planning session, and question answering.
The RE will usually ask about family history, if a woman has regular cycles, if she is been tracking her temps each morning or using ovulation predictor kits to check her ovulation, and about a million other questions. If that woman has short cycles or long long cycles, doesn't know if she's ovulating, or has other symptoms (painful periods, short luteral phases, etc), it will play into what testing is done. I am no expert at all tests out there so I can only tell you my experience, others have different ones.
The first step is for the man to have a semen analysis. So Jeff gave a sample (guys have the easy part ;) ). When looking at a sample, they are looking for a few things including count, motility, morphology, and defective sperm. Count is the overall number of sperm, motility is how well they swim (both speed and direction, no swimming in circles!), morphology is their size and shape (helps determine if they can get into the egg), and defects could range from having two heads to no tail and more. Jeff's test came back great, with the exception of morphology. He saw urologist who was not worried at all and neither was our RE. The RE basically said morphology is like soldiers who didn't bring all their gear, they may still get in and win, but it will be much harder and more may die in the process. Yep, I can never get away from military comparisons. They said that this was most likely not our problem. So Jeff gets a pass and just has to take vitamins to maintain his health.
My testing was not quite so easy. The first thing I did was went in on day three of my cycle and had around six or seven tubes of blood drawn. The testing included looking at levels of testosterone, FSH, LH, thyroid hormones, estradiol, and a genetic panel done. Most of my levels came back within a fairly normal range, except my thyroid. That was high and so I was started on a medication called levothyroxin to hopefully bring it back down to normal levels. I am not a genetic carrier for anything so that is pretty awesome to know too. At that same visit an ultrasound done to look at my ovaries and uterus. My uterus was perfect but my ovaries (along with some other symptoms) showed that I have a condition called polycystic ovarian syndrome (PCOS). I'll write about that another time, because that is a whole post by itself. About a week later I went and had an HSG done. This is a test where they essentially check to see if your Fallopian tubes are open and functioning. If you want to read more about it, click HERE. This site include descriptions, tube pictures, and some facts. My left tube has no problems but my right one is inconclusive. As of right now it's considered blocked but the doctor said that he didn't feel comfortable stating whether it was open or blocked because the test was somewhat inconclusive. So we are treating it as blocked. There's nothing that can be done for this except surgery and even surgery has no guarantees. They could perform the surgery, we would be benched for a few months, and within a few months the tube could be blocked again and so it is really not beneficial.
What a normal HSG looks like
Since many times PCOS can be caused by insulin resistance, my doctor also had me do a two hour glucose test. This consisted of drinking a bottle of highly concentrated sugar water, tasting very similar to the orange drink at McDonald's, and then waiting two hours. They drew my blood both before and after and tested the levels to see if I was at risk for diabetes or potentially had diabetes. That test came back that I was fine and not insulin resistant. Thank goodness for small victories! I have now started referring to the lab people as vampires though, because I see them so often and they take bunches of blood! They laugh when I do. :)
After getting all the results we had another meeting with our RE. It was determined that the cause of our infertility was most likely the PCOS causing weak and sometimes no ovulation, high thyroid, and the morphology didn't exactly help. So our plan is to take a medication called Femera (Letrozole) on days three through seven of my next cycle, and hope that that brings on a stronger ovulation than I've been experiencing. Hopefully this will be enough to help us meet cutie pie Humphrey. Time will tell!
Tuesday, January 6, 2015
About Us
This is the story of two people who fall in love, get married, and decide to start a family. They say a picture is worth 1000 words so in my opinion a video must be worth at least 10,000. Here is a little video about us :)
Nobody ever thinks that they're going to experience problems with infertility or the inability to have children. I know in my family there are a lot of kids, and and it seems like very few people had trouble having their kids, so we figured we would be no different. We met in the summer of 2009, we are an eHarmony love story. We enjoyed traveling around the country and even traveled to Panama where we were engaged in January 2010. It was definitely a whirlwind romance of love and laughter and knowing that we wanted to spend our lives together. We came home, decided we wanted a Fall wedding, and chose the date for September of that year. Many people asked if I was pregnant since we were getting married so fast, it was funny at the moment and now it just seems ironic. After 3 years of marriage, in October of 2013, we decided it was time to start a family. We had our fur babies, Buddy and Chase, but we were ready for a human baby.
Jeff had just taken a new position working in Iowa and I was finishing up getting our house ready to be sold in Minnesota. We figured our lack of luck those first few months were probably due to the fact that we only saw each other Friday to Sunday, so no big deal. Then in May 2014 we moved to Wisconsin, together, and figured that we would finally have our baby. Six months later and still no luck. I am really starting to wonder if there is such a thing as two pink lines.
We made an appointment to see a Reproductive Endocrinologist (RE) in November of 2014. This is basically somebody who specializes in fertility. Over the course of the next month, Jeff and I gave many tubes of blood, had lots of diagnostic testing done, and met with the doctor many times. At the end of all the testing, it was found out that I have PCOS (more on that at a different time), a thyroid problem, and a blocked tube. I started a medication for the thyroid problem and within a month my levels were back to normal, hallelujah. I am also really watching my diet and making sure to get exercising and have been continually losing weight hoping that that will make a difference with the PCOS. There's nothing that can be done about the blocked tube. They could try and unblock it, but chances are it would probably just re-block and would set us back even more time. So now we are looking to try a couple of medicated cycles and will see what happens.
I plan to continue to update the blog as we go along and let people know how are doing and where we're at. Thanks for joining me on this part of the journey and hopefully it will end in that baby carriage that I have been longing for for so long.
Nobody ever thinks that they're going to experience problems with infertility or the inability to have children. I know in my family there are a lot of kids, and and it seems like very few people had trouble having their kids, so we figured we would be no different. We met in the summer of 2009, we are an eHarmony love story. We enjoyed traveling around the country and even traveled to Panama where we were engaged in January 2010. It was definitely a whirlwind romance of love and laughter and knowing that we wanted to spend our lives together. We came home, decided we wanted a Fall wedding, and chose the date for September of that year. Many people asked if I was pregnant since we were getting married so fast, it was funny at the moment and now it just seems ironic. After 3 years of marriage, in October of 2013, we decided it was time to start a family. We had our fur babies, Buddy and Chase, but we were ready for a human baby.
Jeff had just taken a new position working in Iowa and I was finishing up getting our house ready to be sold in Minnesota. We figured our lack of luck those first few months were probably due to the fact that we only saw each other Friday to Sunday, so no big deal. Then in May 2014 we moved to Wisconsin, together, and figured that we would finally have our baby. Six months later and still no luck. I am really starting to wonder if there is such a thing as two pink lines.
We made an appointment to see a Reproductive Endocrinologist (RE) in November of 2014. This is basically somebody who specializes in fertility. Over the course of the next month, Jeff and I gave many tubes of blood, had lots of diagnostic testing done, and met with the doctor many times. At the end of all the testing, it was found out that I have PCOS (more on that at a different time), a thyroid problem, and a blocked tube. I started a medication for the thyroid problem and within a month my levels were back to normal, hallelujah. I am also really watching my diet and making sure to get exercising and have been continually losing weight hoping that that will make a difference with the PCOS. There's nothing that can be done about the blocked tube. They could try and unblock it, but chances are it would probably just re-block and would set us back even more time. So now we are looking to try a couple of medicated cycles and will see what happens.
I plan to continue to update the blog as we go along and let people know how are doing and where we're at. Thanks for joining me on this part of the journey and hopefully it will end in that baby carriage that I have been longing for for so long.
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